Thoughts that Run
this late Sunday Afternoon
I couldn’t ever understand what I wanted.
Even now… I still don’t understand.
But – maybe it’s the same with you.
There’s always been this sort of disconnect between the world and us. You and I were born and told to live this way and that way: Told what to learn and told what’s right and what’s wrong. In the end, none of it really made me feel any closer to this world. So I relearned: Relearned to feel. Relearned to live. And – if you’re out there too, like me, I hope you’re relearning it all as well.
Because I’m not sure what I like and I’m definitely not sure what I love.
But I still try.
I try to think until I can feel myself twist up inside-out until I can’t rethink back to the way I was. I try to feel like it’s not just my heart in it but everyone else’s eyes and souls all looking at what I look at and seeing everything we see and everything we don’t.
And through it all, I simply hope I stumble across likes and loves along the way – that make no sense, but
We’re relearning. So if they see us falling apart and tell us that we’re destroying ourselves – at least we know- even if it’s to ourselves – that we recreate ourselves –
One by one – by one.